So just about an hour ago I was driving home and listening to Queen and the song "Who Wants To Live Forever" came on. It got me to thinking. Would I rather live forever or live with the specter of death hanging over my head constantly? On the one hand, knowing that I would be around forever and not having to worry about things like disease would be pretty sweet. The downside would be losing everybody that I care about, and there are a lot of you. I know that death is always a possibility and there are no guarantees in life up to and including life itself. I'm just saying, what if...
I tend to think that I would rather things were just as they are and here's why. Given the fact that I have this disease, and now that I am considerably more in control of my emotions, I am led to live each and every day to the fullest. To be the best I can be and squeeze every drop of... whatever from the life I have. I tend to think that if I put out to the universe that I am healthy and strong, and keep the vision in my head that I am alive and living life to the fullest, that is what the universe will give me.
Now, flip the coin over and lets say that I had an eternity to do whatever my heart desired. I already know how I lived when I thought I would leave this earth at oh, I dunno, 75-80... I sat around doing silly things with the mentality that I could always do it tomorrow or the next day. Now I realize that tomorrow may not arrive, no matter how stalwart the postman is. He will still make his appointed rounds but there may not be a package in his bag for me.
So... I apologize ahead of time if I bug any of you to do something over and over again, or if you call and get my voice-mail. I may just be a little bit busy... LIVING!
Until next post, I bid you peace.